Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Lost Focus, Regaining Me

I gave up teaching fitness classes this year, in part, because I don't have time to focus on my own fitness and health by giving up that time for others.  I've not taught one class all month this month and I have struggled big time in getting into a routine.  I have been incredibly tired which has made it difficult to motivate myself to workout.  I know it is due to stress.  I've taken on a lot more responsibility at work, willingly.  I'm trying to adjust to my daughter being an adult and living on her own.  My grandmother passed away on the 1st.  And, as is par for this time of year, I am stressed about finances.  

I have struggled to manage my finances well since my last divorce.  I started the year strong, then I made the mistake of trusting a man!  I was "dating" him and he claimed to be out of money and work was slow to bring in the income (he said he was a roofer).  I made the mistake of telling him I was getting my bonus at work and how much that bonus would be.  He asked to "borrow" money from me to live on until the work picked up.  For some $2500 may not be much  money, but to me it is a LOT.  I did not really have that money to spare.  I needed to save it to cover tuition for my daughter in the event she did not have enough in aid and scholarships.  Guess what.  She didn't have enough.  I have not seen a red cent or that man since I lost that money and it has been a hell of a struggle since.

This time of year adds more to my financial stress because I always manage to make things too tight and can't do as much for my kids for Christmas.  I never ask for help because in all honesty, I do it to myself.  It isn't that I don't have the means.  It is because I make poor choices throughout the year.  It is something I am trying to correct and will.  I already have a solid and workable plan for the new year.  The plan includes buying my first home.  This adds yet another stress.

My body handles stress with increased fatigue.  High fatigue is something with which I've dealt my entire life.  There are few days I can remember NOT feeling tired.  I have learned in recent years that when I can push through feeling tired and workout and when I make sure to eat as clean as possible, the fatigue is less.  Instead of having maybe 2 hours of "rested" time each day, that increases to a solid 8 hours of feeling rested.  It goes against our human nature way of thinking to believe that a hard and exhausting workout can actually increase your energy level, but it does!!!  It does take a few weeks of consistency to make it happen but it is well worth it.  This is where I find myself today...fighting through the fatigue and the stress to do what I know is best for me in total.

I know it will happen.  I have a support system to help me.  I have a great group of ladies with whom I am accountable through a Facebook group.  I also have my daughter who is great about making me feel guilty when I want to skip my workout or eat something I shouldn't.  She simply reminds me, as I ask her to, and then adds in an extra "but mom, you told me to not let you skip!"  In the feels...right there!  I will let down my child if I don't follow through.  I CANNOT do that!  Find what works, right?

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Chicken Tortilla Soup

Prep Time: 10 minutes
Cook Time: 6-8 Hours On High; 10-12 Hours On Low
Yield: About 8 - 2 cup servings


  • 1 lb. boneless, skinless chicken breasts
  • 10 oz. frozen, whole kernel corn
  • 28 oz. organic diced tomatoes
  • 14 oz. garbanzo beans or black beans
  • 3 whole roasted chiles, diced
  • 4 c. organic, reduced sodium chicken broth


Add ingredients to a slow cooker in the order listed, starting with chicken.  The chicken can be frozen or thawed.  Set to low for 8-10 hours or high for 4-5 hours.  Serve over brown rice or with baked corn tortilla strips or chips.

Nutrition Information

Using only the listed ingredients (as calculated by MyFitnessPal)